Messed up!

I seriously feel i did mess up.I made the same mistake twice.

I feel so miserable.It seems i failed this time too.

The scar this one mistake left on my life cannot be erased.

I feel numb,heartless,pathetic.

I knew this was about to happen.I knew the consequences.Still i did the same mistake!

I should have known that i didn’t deserve it.

It was all my fault.

The sole reason of my anxiety and depression was this.But i still fell in its trap!

Now i feel like i am falling into hole and nothing can save me.

I am consumed by silence yet there is a chaos in my mind!

What was my fault?

Why am i suffering anyway?

Was it because of an unforgivable mistake i made in my past Life?

I used to hate the word sorry…But now,that what i am feeling for myself,’Sorry’.

Fairy tales aren’t real after all.

Not every story has a happy ending!

But the ending i got is far from what i deserved.

And you know what my mistake was?

My mistake was that i fell in LOVE again.

Keep dreaming<3

Much love,

Syntka~

 

 

UPDATE!!

Hey guys!

It feels so good to be back again!

I am so sorry for not updating for such a long time.

Writing is my hobby and I can never stop writing.

But I was really going through a lot!

Even now I am .I can’t really tell what it is because it’s really personal.

But whatever .

I just wanted to say that I might not be able to update again really soon .I mean that until everything gets sorted out in my life.It will take a month or two more most probably but I really have some fun stuff in my mind to write about later.

And this time I won’t just vanish again!

I love you guys!

Keep dreaming❤

~Syntka~

p.s.-you guys can follow me on instagram!

@messy_haired_girl

Buhbyeee!💗

 

People that matter!<3

First of all ,i wanna apologize for being such a bad blogger…

I know that its been long that i didn’t post anything!

No i am not dead(sorry guys…)..

Today’s blog is going to be related to everything about Friends and Friendship….

Ok, so let me ask you a few things first…

  • Do you have that one person in your life who you know will always be by your side no matter what situation you are into?
  • Do you have that one person in your life in front of whom you don’t care about your make-up and stuffs like that?
  • Can you name one person that will give you the best advice whenever you facing a problem(no matter how stupid that problem is)?
  • Can you name that one person who will never be irritated with your break up stories and annoying sobs,(even at the middle of the night)?
  • Do you have that one person in your life who will always be your partner in crime?
  • Do you know that one person who can make you laugh and cry at the same time?
  • Do you know that one person you cant stay without talking to even for a single day?
  • Can you name that one person whom you can trust blindly no matter how introvert you are?
  • Can you name that one person who knows all your dirty secrets?
  • Do you know that one person who will laugh at your jokes no matter how silly they are?
  • Do you have that one person in your life who will fight for you?
  • Can you name that one person who knows you better than anyone else?

If your answer to each of my questions is YES, then you have something really precious in life….

If you have read my previous post,then you must probably know that i am an introvert….

And i have ego issues! (Gets me into trouble sometimes)

And my friend circle is small…Like RREEEAAALLLYYY tiny!

I hardly have friends…

But the ones i consider to be my friends are really special to me! 


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This is me in the left,and my very close friends on the farewell party organized by our school.That guy Maddie is one of the tallest ,craziest,funniest guy I have known in my life.And Driè is the sweetest person ever.Her voice is crazy(in a good way)!

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This is my best friend and she most trust-worthy person(Ignore my bloodless zombie face)!

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These are my other best friends…

There are 2 more with whom i don’t have a proper photo…But basically that’s it ….My friends!

Its not that i don’t like making friends,Its just that i like my circle small…

And i dont trust anyone easily!

If you are able to gain my trust ,then you are most welcome to be my friend and i swear i am not gonna break your trust….Ever!

Because as you guys(the ones who read my stupid posts!:-P) know,that every time i say this-

“There are no strangers in this world,only friends we haven’t met!”

But this is not true in every case,I am only referring to the persons who are worthy enough to be called a friend…

Who really knows what FRIENDSHIP is!

Who really understands that it is a very pure and divine bond!

True friends are hard to find…Its easy to break someones trust but very difficult to gain!

So if you really have someone whom you can trust wholeheartedly, then try to maintain that bond you share with the person!

Because at the end of the day you dont want to sit alone in your room and keep everything(anger,sorrow,pain,happiness) within you….

You really want someone with whom you can share everything and pour your heart out!

That”s all guys…

Hope you loved reading my post!

P.s.-I just wanna know if you guys really have someone whom you call a true friend….and how big is your circle?…

What do you and your friends usually do and where do you usually go when you guys hangout?

Any funny situation you and your friend shared?

Much love,

Dreamwanderer1 ❤

Can you help?

This is really important guys,please do not ignore this post!

Every Word You Say

A good friend of mine needs help. I’m going to get straight to the point here. Both her and her partner have mental and physical issues and they have two children in their care- a young girl and a little boy with Asperger’s. This family is being evicted and, because of the American welfare system, they have nowhere to go.

This is their gofundme page: http://www.gofundme.com/y5d244. Now I’m not asking you to donate, and many of you reading this will not be in the financial position to do so. But we can all help. You could take 3 seconds to reblog this post. Or you could take 5 seconds to go onto this page and share it with your Facebook friends. Anything to raise awareness of their situation.

But if you are financially able to donate, anything will help. $5 is the cost of your daily coffee, could you…

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Free Style Writing Challenge!

Thanks a lot Gaurav for nominating me for this unique challenge.

 

I have not blogged for long…And yeah I am not dead as most of you must be thinking by now…XD

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So,here it goes:-

The rules are:

1. Open a blank Document
2. Set a stop watch or your mobile phone timer to 5 or 10 minutes, whichever challenge you prefer.
3. Your topic is at the foot of this post BUT DO NOT SCROLL DOWN TO SEE IT UNTIL YOU ARE READY WITH YOUR TIMER!!!
4. Once you start writing do not stop until the alarm sounds!
5. Do not cheat by going back and correcting spelling and grammar using spell check (it is only meant for you to reflect on your own control of sensible thought flow and for you to reflect on your ability to write with correct spelling and grammar.)
6. You may or may not pay attention to punctuation or capitals.
7. At the end of your post write down ‘No. of words = ____” to give an idea of how much you can write within the time frame.
8. Do not forget to copy paste the entire passage on your blog post with a new topic for your nominees and copy paste these rules with your nomination (at least five (5) bloggers).

The topic Gaurav gave me was- Time, I set the stopwatch at 5 minutes ..

Here it begins!

1st thing that comes to my mind is that-

Time is money…

A very famous quote…I know most of you came through this before…

Luckily, I know 1 more…and this is one of my favorites-

                                                                    Time is

Too slow for those who wait,

Too swift for those who fear,

Too long for those who grieve,

Too short for those who rejoice,

But for those who love,

Time is eternity….

                                      -Henry Van Dyke

This is a quote that my grandpa told me when I was in 3rd or 4th grade….

It is so beautiful that his words still remains fresh in my mind…

Time is too precious to be lost…

Time is too limited so dont waste it living someone else’s life!

And for those who had lost something precious in life, always remember that…“Time is a great healer”

It heals all wounds regardless of how you are feeling right now!:)

So, dont worry,You will get over it slowly…

Time is your best friend and also your biggest enemy!

Life is short and time is precious…

So be careful about how you are utilizing time…

Because if you are using it properly,then no one can stop you from conquering the world!

Thats it!

 Beeeeeeeep!!!!!!

Timer goes off!

I dont even know how i did…But it was fun seriously!

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Now i Nominate:

Hitesh

Mythicalstarsgirl

Shadow of the droplets

Shubby

toodletales

My topic for you guys is:

DREAM

Best of luck and enjoy writing!

Much love,

Syntka<3

I Am a Happy-Go-Lucky Girl!!..(NOT)

Many of you might probably think that I am a very happy-go-lucky girl.

This word stress doesnt fit in my life very much!

Its not that I am always relieved and am never stressed….I too have panic attacks before exams and I too have to face many problems in life like any other teenager!But I never let that overburden me or You can say that i know how to control my emotions…

No i am not a super-girl..(I know you guys must be thinking that this is not possible as almost every other teenager have anxiety issues)!

But i think i have acquired this quality because of my parents…No they are not the most care free parents in the world..(as you might be thinking by now)….In fact they are the most stressed out parents in the world…And the most indecisive one too…Both mom and dad!

So the prize for the most stressed out parent goes to….

My parents…Yay!

But no yay…Its not a good thing…In fact its the worst thing… 

You might be thinking that then- Why did i mention that i haveacquired this quality because of my parents?

Well because You should have at least one member in the family to be carefree..(In everybody’s case it,s the parents but in my case sadly it’s me)…Or else your life will become a disaster…Imagine everyone in the family having their own stress issues…Then whenever you guys will talk about your lives ,you will become more burdened with the issues the others are facing !

So i  had to develop this quality…

But recently ,I am not able to maintain it…

I am 17…And i am trying to get into a good college…But i am having a fear that is bothering me a lot!

What i dont get into one?…What am i going to do in life?…What if my friends do great and i sit at home doing nothing?

These questions are bothering me so much that i cant concentrate at anything in life…I am having sleepless nights! I dont wanna  eat anything! I cry for nothing! And i get irritated very fast…

I was not like this before…

Things have changed…

Yesterday I yelled at my mom for no reason and now i am feeling bad…I know i hurt her a lot!

I just feel that they deserved a better daughter and i am not able to give them what they deserve!

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They love me very much and they tell me that they are proud of me and give me whatever i want…But i am not giving them anything in return…

I want to become my normal self again…

This is not me…

And this is really killing me from inside…!

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I just wish that some day i wake up and find that it was all a dream…And my life is beautiful…And i have nothing to worry about!

Keep dreaming guys!…(This is the one thing that i will never leave)!

Much love,

Syntka<3

LIEBSTER AWARD #1

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Thank you josefinemk  for nominating me.This is my first liebster award nomination,so I am really excited about it.Again thanks for the nomination!

The rules: –

1.Thank the blogger who nominated you and answer their questions.

2.Think of 10 new questions and nominate other bloggers (under 200 followers) you would like to know more about.

My answers:

1) What is your best photograph you took whilst travelling?

Well the best photograph was of a rhino feeding her baby which I took Back in 2013 in Pobitora National Park,Assam. Well its in my camera or else i would have posted it !!!

2) Where would you like to travel where you have never been before?

I would love to go to Nashville…Its so beautiful!

3) Describe your blog in 5 words.

I will use 5 random words with which i can relate to my blog. Comfort.Freedom.Friends.Lifestyle.Dream

4) If you could speak a language fluently which one would you chose?

I would love to speak French… I have a friend who can speak french because her mom is from France…and whenever she speaks french in front of me,I couldnt help but fall for the language! Its a beautiful language…

5) What was the most surprising element of a travel experience? Something you did not expect.

I never expected to get the chance of SCUBA DIVING and enjoy it….I love swimming…But that thing is scary… When my cousins forced me to do it,I was really scared to death and i was cursing them all…But i actually enjoyed it and i want to do it again… It was really surprising that i could actually gather the courage  to do it…

6) What is your funniest moment of a journey/ time in a new country?

The funniest moment would be when I went to Burma with my family…None of my family members knew Burmese(If thats what the language is called)…And they didnt understand our language even…So when we wanted to visit a temple, my cousins and me had to enact a whole scene just to explain the natives that we wnanted to visit a temple.We were like like making weird postures in front of everyone present there at that moment.It took about 45 mins for them to understand what we were trying to say!!! And me and my cousins ended up looking like clowns!!

7) What do you bring home after your journey?

I love clicking pictures…So rather than shopping, I love to bring back memories…Mostly captured in my camera…I love to know about different cultures and relate to them…I also try to bring some of their ways of living… Those memories really help me to cheer up whenever i am upset…

8) Camping, hostel or hotel? What do you prefer?

Camping… I love adventures and being as close to nature as possible…I have camped before and i really enjoy it…

9) Did you see an animal which you did not know before? If so, which?

No, there is no such animal… But there are animals about which i know but i just recently got the chance to see it…Its the Pigmy Hog…

10) Whats your favourite colour?

My favorite colour is blue… Its very refreshing…and it makes me happy! Its all that matters right,i mean to be happy?

AND NOW HERE ARE MY QUESTIONS:

1.Whats the craziest thing that you did till date?

2.What is your wildest fantasy?

3.If u met someone who could fulfill your wishes,what three wishes will you ask for?

4.What is the thing that you regret in life?

5.Name 5 things that makes you happy.

6.How will you describe your life in one word?

7.Painting or photograpy?

8.Family or Friends?

9.What makes you proud of yourself?

10.Favorite book and what did you learn from it.      

                                                                                    My nominees:

wanderlusterlee

Gaurav Chaplot

shiivani

destineewrites

Elm

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Hello Dreamers!

I have decided to start a blog.

I am 17 years old and I like any other girl have big dreams.

Since I am the only child of my parents, I hardly have anyone to share my thoughts with…So one of my friends advised me to start a blog….

It is this place where I can truly be myself…I promise that this blog is not just about me, I want to know others too…Everybody is free to express their feelings here and share their thoughts…And i surely will respond…This blog is about exploring!

I have so many thoughts, so many ideas that I want to share with you guys and mostly the issues that every teenage girl faces at some point or the other…My mind is really exploding…And i know most of you must feel the same…So feel free to share…

I believe that there is no strangers in this world, only friends that you have not met…

So “if” you are reading this blog,let me tell you that i already considered you to be my friend…

Thanks for reading this!!!

I love you all…

Keep me updated with whats going on in your life and tell me what you think of my first blog…feel free to share any suggestions….<3

-Syntka